When there are facts that you don’t want to face, it’s tempting to rationalize them away and avoid the truth. This type of self-deception only mires you deeper in the muck. Trust your instincts: Things are usually exactly what they seem to be.
Your assumptions about this will change as you age. That’s normal. A picket fence lifestyle that once seemed torturously confining might one day seem comfortably secure; a personality that once struck you as overly emotional may grow sympathetic. What you think you want to have or be at any given moment isn’t really important; what matters is that you are present in your own life, considering it and shaping it with the force of your will.
I hope you are able to fend off cynicism as long as possible to keep your youthful passion sincere and viable.
You are luminous and resplendent. You are rapturous and incandescent.
Go far enough that you see only water on one endless horizon. Turn the engines off. Listen to the ocean. Grasp the magnitude of this planet.
Everything gets easier the more you do it, good or bad, so choose your habits wisely.
Hypocrisy is not the blanket failure it’s made out to be; we all act in ways that conflict with the image we want to reflect or the values we want to embody. Try not to pigeonhole people with expectations; be forgiving of this inconsistency, both in yourself and in others.
It never works anyway.